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some new thoughts...

2010-02-17T18:57:00.000-08:00

so I havent written in a very long time. The problem with me and blogging is I have too many thoughts and I tend to not wanna take the time to write them all down lol I never was into having a diary or journal, but I do like it when I do blog haha if that makes sense...anyways I wanted to write a little about my bible studies and thoughts.We just finished the Esther bible study. It was so good and I love listening to Beth Moore.

I just started another Bible study with Beth entitled 'Jesus the One and Only' so it will be a study on Jesus. I am excited to study deeply. We talked about famines back in history where people didnt hear new words from God but He wanted to provoke a hunger for God and his Word. In the same way, he does that in our lives with our own 'famines.' Even when God seems silent, he is working in our lives. That is just a tiny bit of the study tonight. It really spoke to me during my own times of struggles and trials. I feel he wants me to draw near to Him and create a hunger for more of Him. There can always be more! I am thankful for these studies and people who encourage and I pray I can encourage others also.

John 1:14 "The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth."

some thoughts

2010-02-17T18:38:00.000-08:00

so I havent written in a very long time. The problem with me and blogging is I have too many thoughts and I tend to not wanna take the time to write them all down lol I never was into having a diary or journal, but I do like it when I do blog haha if that makes sense...anyways I wanted to write a little about my bible studies and thoughts.

We just finished the Esther bible study. It was so good and I love listening to Beth Moore. I just started another Bible study with Beth entitled 'Jesus the One and Only' so it will be a study on Jesus. I am excited to study deeply. We talked about famines back in history where people didnt hear new words from God but He wanted to provoke a hunger for God and his Word. In the same way, he does that in our lives with our own 'famines.' Even when God seems silent, he is working in our lives. That is just a tiny bit of the study tonight. It really spoke to me during my own times of struggles and trials. I feel he wants me to draw near to Him and create a hunger for more of Him. There can always be more! I am thankful for these studies and people who encourage and I pray I can encourage others also.

John 1:14 "The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth."

Life Changes!

2009-06-14T10:12:00.000-07:00

My dad: "Did you ever think by the time you were 23, you would be married, have a baby, house, and a job???"
Me: "no....its crazy."

IT IS PRETTY CRAZY and EXCITING. I thank God everyday for the blessings He has given me.

I am so excited to be the 3 year olds preschool teacher :) It will be a challenge but rewarding and a learning experience...there will be some special needs children, but will have 2 aides in the classroom.

The house is coming along well...as you can see from the pics...the last big thing is put the carpet in the living room...the bedrooms have nice hardwood floors so we will keep them...we decided against them in the living room cuz it is also right above the crawl space so would prolly be cold in the winter...then we can move in and work on little stuff then...we have to be out of the apt by the 30th so...

my sister and nieces are coming to visit sooon :) 16th-26th I think :) fun stuff!

Lots goin on!

2009-06-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

Wow lots of things happening right now! We are making some progress with the house....we washed all the windows and the walls ...there was dust and spiders !! ewww i could not clean the cupboards cuz of the spiders lol The next step is painting the bedrooms and taking out the carpet...there are nice hardwood floors underneath... we are doing a jungle theme in drew's room...a boarder in the middle, wallpaper with fern leaves up to the border then painting the top half...it will be good haha hard to describe right now...and our room, we want to paint it a light blue (my fav) :) its a process...kinda overwhelming but that is life lol...we have to get a washer, dryer, fridge and stove too...hello responsibility we meet forever now...lol well i was already responsible with drew but now its covering all the bases haha I love it though...

It also have this job opportunity ...I had my second interview...we will see...will know next week! I just keep praying for favor but I know God is in control and if He wants me to have the job, I will. I trust Him. (even tho I really want it) just bein honest ;)

JEREMIAH 29:11

Thoughts about my life with Drew

2009-05-13T15:08:00.000-07:00

I havent felt very creative lately to write a blog post...or havent known what to say...but anyways...just been being a mom, spending all my time with Drew which I LOVE...I just love him so much...I saw these quotes...

"Making the decision to have a child is momentous.
It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."

And...

"Before you were conceived I wanted you
Before you were born I loved you
Before you were here an hour I would die for you
This is the miracle of love."
Maureen Hawkins

Those two quotes are so true. You cannot describe the love you feel for your baby...Before I had Drew, I did not fully understand. Now I do. :)
When he wraps his arms around my neck...its amazing. When he laughs at me, it just warms my hear and puts a huge smile on my face =)

Our lives are definitely changed...for the good! But it is an adjustment. There are some things I miss but my life with Nick and Drew are first...mostly miss just being spontaneous with friends. well most are not here but...when I am not with Drew tho, I miss him.

:)
I am blessed. I thank God for Drew and pray for him everyday.

W.o.w.

2009-04-18T20:13:00.000-07:00

I read this tonight and it encouraged me. I dont know why I read this but I randomly did and it is awesome. God is awesome....I read it in the NIV then The Message...this is the Message version...

2 Samuel 22 (The Message)

1 David prayed to God the words of this song after God saved him from all his enemies and from Saul.
2-3 God is bedrock under my feet,
the castle in which I live,
my rescuing knight.
My God—the high crag
where I run for dear life,
hiding behind the boulders,
safe in the granite hideout;
My mountaintop refuge,
he saves me from ruthless men.
4 I sing to God the Praise-Lofty,
and find myself safe and saved.
5-6 The waves of death crashed over me,
devil waters rushed over me.
Hell's ropes cinched me tight;
death traps barred every exit.
7 A hostile world! I called to God,
to my God I cried out.
From his palace he heard me call;
my cry brought me right into his presence—
a private audience!
8-16 Earth wobbled and lurched;
the very heavens shook like leaves,
Quaked like aspen leaves
because of his rage.
His nostrils flared, billowing smoke;
his mouth spit fire.
Tongues of fire darted in and out;
he lowered the sky.
He stepped down;
under his feet an abyss opened up.
He rode a winged creature,
swift on wind-wings.
He wrapped himself
in a trenchcoat of black rain-cloud darkness.
But his cloud-brightness burst through,
a grand comet of fireworks.
Then God thundered out of heaven;
the High God gave a great shout.
God shot his arrows—pandemonium!
He hurled his lightnings—a rout!
The secret sources of ocean were exposed,
the hidden depths of earth lay uncovered
The moment God roared in protest,
let loose his hurricane anger.
17-20 But me he caught—reached all the way
from sky to sea; he pulled me out
Of that ocean of hate, that enemy chaos,
the void in which I was drowning.
They hit me when I was down,
but God stuck by me.
He stood me up on a wide-open field;
I stood there saved—surprised to be loved!
21-25 God made my life complete
when I placed all the pieces before him.
When I cleaned up my act,
he gave me a fresh start.
Indeed, I've kept alert to God's ways;
I haven't taken God for granted.
Every day I review the ways he works,
I try not to miss a trick.
I feel put back together,
and I'm watching my step.
God rewrote the text of my life
when I opened the book of my heart to his eyes.
26-28 You stick by people who stick with you,
you're straight with people who're straight with you,
You're good to good people,
you shrewdly work around the bad ones.
You take the side of the down-and-out,
but the stuck-up you take down a peg.
29-31 Suddenly, God, your light floods my path,
God drives out the darkness.
I smash the bands of marauders,
I vault the high fences.
What a God! His road
stretches straight and smooth.
Every God-direction is road-tested.
Everyone who runs toward him
Makes it.
32-46 Is there any god like God?
Are we not at bedrock?
Is not this the God who armed me well,
then aimed me in the right direction?
Now I run like a deer;
I'm king of the mountain.
He shows me how to fight;
I can bend a bronze bow!
You protect me with salvation-armor;
you touch me and I feel ten feet tall.
You cleared the ground under me
so my footing was firm.
When I chased my enemies I caught them;
I didn't let go till they were dead men.
I nailed them; they were down for good;
then I walked all over them.
You armed me well for this fight;
you smashed the upstarts.
You made my enemies turn tail,
and I wiped out the haters.
They cried "uncle"
but Uncle didn't come;
They yelled for God
and got no for an answer.
I ground them to dust; they gusted in the wind.
I threw them out, like garbage in the gutter.
You rescued me from a squabbling people;
you made me a leader of nations.
People I'd never heard of served me;
the moment they got wind of me they submitted.
They gave up; they came trembling from their hideouts.
47-51 Live, God! Blessing to my Rock,
my towering Salvation-God!
This God set things right for me
and shut up the people who talked back.
He rescued me from enemy anger.
You pulled me from the grip of upstarts,
You saved me from the bullies.
That's why I'm thanking you, God,
all over the world.
That's why I'm singing songs
that rhyme your name.
God's king takes the trophy;
God's chosen is beloved.
I mean David and all his children—
always.

AMEN! I need encouragement and God gives it to me!

The Notebook...a thought...

2009-04-08T20:49:00.000-07:00

I love The Notebook and I love this quote. Tis true; tis true. Love is definitely not always a feeling. It is a committment and not always sunshine and roses, but it is there no matter what. At the end of the day, you know you are laying next to someone who will be there for the rest of your life. :) I love you Nick.

Mother Reflection

2009-03-23T00:24:00.000-07:00

So I was watching Beverly Hills 90210 (lol) anyways it was an episode of a teenage girl who has a baby and Branden, one of the main people, date her and blah blah ...., the girl who has the baby thinks about what life would be like if she gave the baby up for adoption cuz she wants to go to harvard and talks about how she sometimes wants a break from the baby but then then cant wait to hold him again...Branden's mom talks to her and says it gets harder but it gets better too... "they become a part of your dreams"

It is very interesting watching this episode at this point in my life because it would be very different if I was watching it before I had Drew. It is amazing how being a mother or parent for that matter, changes your perspectives on things. It is hard to explain what I am thinking but just wanted to write it down...

I thank God everyday for blessing us with Drew :)

My family

2009-03-19T16:26:00.000-07:00

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I love...

2009-03-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

So this has been a hard week..Nick has been sick all week and I havent felt great but not the same way he has felt..I just pray Drew does not get sick...and that we all feel better quickly! Being sick is for the birds!

Drew is getting cuter and cuter I swear :) I just love him so much! It is an unexplainable feeling to be a mother. I love it!

I love...

God
my family
being a wife
being a mother
having my own family
staying home with Drew
going in the hot tub in winter
warm days filled with sunshine
taking stroller walks with lil Drew
taking long, hot showers and baths
watching my favorite television shows
spending time with Nick and just chatting
riding my favorite rollercoasters at Cedar Point
walking along the beach in Fort Myers, FL
laying out in the bright sun on the beach
spending time with my fun,crazy family
spending time with all my friends
having quality time with Nick
playing board games w/fam
bath&body works lotion
cuddling with Drew
eating ice cream
inside jokes
laughing
sun

And I love this quote:

"Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly." Rose Franken

BarneyFamily

2009-03-13T08:56:00.001-07:00

Subjective

2009-03-06T17:38:00.000-08:00

So here is my little rant....so I have come to the conclusion that...well I didnt just come to this conclusion but it was once again reinforced after I received my paper back from my class. Judging/Grading writing is subjective! You cannot judge someone's papers objectively besides grammer...I mean it just is not possible. How can you say that something is not right or "too wordy" etc when it is someone's story! I mean I handed in that paper I wrote about how having a baby has changed my life and she crossed out some things saying I needed to make it shorter or too wordy...HELLO it is MY story so how can you say it is bad?? I really just dont get it...I felt the same way when I was in a creative writing class...how can you say something is bad writing besides if it has bad grammer??? I just dont get it...it would just mean you DONT LIKE it, not that it is bad. Whatev I guess. I mean it isnt a BIG deal, just kinda annoying...

For example, if you read my paper in the previous posts, she crossed out the part in the first paragraph when I said The next thing I heard from the ultrasound technician was music to my ears. “You are going to have a boy.” Those words were the most exciting news I had heard in a while. I had wanted a baby boy!

Ok maybe she wouldnt have put that, but that was part of my story so I had that in there...lol there is my little rant.

Baby thoughts

2009-03-05T11:46:00.000-08:00

I have the best baby! Haha everyone says that. We are just so blessed to have a great, easy-going baby who mostly only fusses when he is hungry and sometimes when he is tired :) Everyone says that means prolly the next one will be crazy haha we will see!!

Time goes by so fast! He is already like 2 1/2 months old! He is sooo tiny in this pic! He was only a day old!! That is why I take so many pics; I want to capture all these moments cuz it goes by so fast... I want to eventually make a scrapbook for him. My mother-in-law made scrapbooks for all three of her kids from when they were babies to now basically :) I want to do that!

New Start

2009-03-02T09:58:00.000-08:00

I guess I will start blogging again...I am not really a journalling type person but maybe I will start doing it regularly. haha

I love being a mom. It is the best! I will post my paper I wrote about how having a baby has changed my life :) Read if you would like:

New Territory

When I first saw those two pink lines on the pregnancy test, I did not think it was real. When I first saw the word “pregnant” on the digital pregnancy test, I did not think it was real. When I saw the two pink lines again on the fourth pregnancy test, I realized it was real. I was going to have a baby. Twenty weeks later, I saw the little body in that ultrasound and my heart overflowed with joy and amazement. The next thing I heard from the ultrasound technician was music to my ears. “You are going to have a boy.” Those words were the most exciting news I had heard in a while. I had wanted a baby boy!
I was not worried or nervous about taking care of a baby; I have taken care of a lot of children. Giving birth was what I was worried about. Not just the fact that a human being was going to come out of me, but thinking about all the possible complications that could occur during the process of having him.
When it came time for me to actually push, I did not think I could do it. I would push and feel no progress and I would turn to my husband and say, “I can’t do it! I can’t do it! What if I can’t push him out?” I realized that was the time I needed to think about the baby first, knowing that I needed to keep pushing for him. It was my responsibility to bring him into this world; that realization made me persevere. I managed to find the strength to keep going, praying along the way. Labor and delivery was a long, hard process of twelve plus hours. Was it worth it? Yes, very much so.
When I felt his whole body come out and be placed on my stomach, an overwhelming feeling of relief and calm washed over me. I did it. This is my baby, my warm tiny baby lying on me. This baby was mine. My own flesh and blood! It is my job to take care of him.
When I first looked into his eyes, I immediately felt love, a deep, deep indescribable unconditional love for him. When I first held him in my arms, I didn’t want to let go. When I first fed him, I recognized his dependence and trust in me and knew he was my responsibility.

He is so tiny and is mine and is my husband’s and God’s handiwork
entrusted to us to raise, care for and lavish with love.
My life is changed forever.

While we were still at the hospital, the “mean ol’ nurse” came in to give my precious baby, Drew, a shot. The needle looked extra big. Don’t hurt my baby! It was as if a very impulsive urge came over me and I wanted to lunge in front of the needle like jumping in front of a bullet. I did not want him to feel pain.
Looking back, I can see how my mom wanted to protect me and do what she can to help me. Starting at eighteen months, I had to have speech therapy. I had a difficult birth; the umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck three times, which resulted in not being able to say many words, beginnings or sometimes endings of words. My mom sacrificed her time at work to drive me to the hospital three days a week and worked extra hours the other days so she could do that. She said, “That is what moms do. We sacrifice for our children.” It is all about priorities, the priorities we make in life when we are responsible for someone else. She has told me, “Taking you to speech therapy was a priority because how you speak would affect you for the rest of your life and I wanted you to have the best opportunity for life as possible.”
I have discovered that I too am making sacrifices for Drew. For example, losing sleep to hold him so he will stop crying and feel loved. Surprisingly enough, it does not bother me too much. Obviously, when I am so tired, when I can barely keep my eyes open, I would rather have him sleep, but he trusts me to feed him. When you're a parent, you do what you have to do for your child. Whatever the need is, I find a way to support the needs of my child because that is my responsibility.
When Drew cries, especially for a long period of time, I don’t get frustrated thinking that I am sick of hearing his cries; I feel bad, sad, for him and wonder why he is so upset. To see his little lips quivering breaks my heart. Before I was pregnant, babies’ cries were annoying and aggravating. However, now that I have my own child, my first thought is what I can do to help him because I am his mother.
Responsibility has come naturally to me now regarding Drew. Everything I do impacts my son. My world now revolves around him. My wants are no longer priorities and I am now focusing on his needs, not just what I want to do. The wise words of Solomon state, “Train a child up in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.” Today those words apply to me as I have my own family and what I want, need, and should do for Drew.
So far, being a parent has not been that tough. I know people say “just wait until he gets into everything, just wait until he is talking your ear off, asking why, why, why to everything.” I am sure sometimes that will annoy me but I will learn as I go and I know that is a part of being a parent.
The hardest thing right now is not being able to sleep as much, but that is a sacrifice you have to make as a parent and I am happy to do that for the sake of my baby. I find that I don’t mind that much because it is for him and that is my main concern now.
Another hard thing now is not having as much time with friends or the freedom to go out anytime with them. Before, if I did not do things with friends, I felt left out or something was missing. However, now that I have Drew, I don’t feel that way because my priorities have shifted to him. Obviously, sometimes I miss that, but I enjoy taking care of my son and know that is what I need to put first.
It is really amazing how much I don’t think of myself as much and how much I think of my baby. If the baby needs something and I am watching a show or have a headache, I can’t say, “But I have to finish this show,” or “I have a headache, I don’t want to get up out of bed.” It is all about the baby. He trusts me to meet his needs; he cannot do it on his own. I am thankful for that responsibility because with it, I have rewards with my son.
When I was growing up, my parents gave me one hundred percent support in terms of sports participation, starting with gymnastics and going to meets for eight years, and basketball camps, recreation league basketball, then school basketball, volleyball, track, softball and going to every game no matter how far away. When I say every game, I mean, every game. They never missed a game. I loved the fact that they did that. I felt loved and supported and I never took that for granted.
Looking to the future, I can see myself giving my time to Drew’s interests, which will most likely be sports; but whatever it is, I will be there to support him one hundred percent. Having a baby and raising him changes my life not just now, but for the rest of my life.
Becoming a parent is really a life-changing experience. It has opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at the world, especially my world with my family. As we enter new territory, we discover new things about ourselves through experiences and relationships. I have learned a lot about myself and I know I will continue to learn more as I grow with my husband and with my son.

It is amazing how two pink lines can change your life.

Dr appt/Birthing class

2008-11-19T17:57:00.000-08:00

I had another dr appt today! It went well....I have been having a lot of headaches lately though so I was kind of concerned about that. However, everything is checking out fine...my blood pressure is great: 120 over 70...no protein in my urine,...sorry if TMI, my feet are swollen but not my legs so that is good...and I am measuring fine and Drew's heartbeat is good, in the 130s :) So..thank the Lord everything is going fine and Drew is doing well.

We had our first birthing class tonight! Haha, what an experience... it was entitled "The Birthing Experience" and I will not put details on here in case people are grossed out but if you wanna know about it, I will gladly tell you about it cuz I want to so message me! haha or I will prolly volunteer the info when/if I talk to you haha

Please pray for my headaches...I am getting them a lot and they are really annoying :( Thank you so much...and thanks for praying for Drew!

Baby Drew update!

2008-11-05T13:43:00.000-08:00

I had another dr appt! It was a good appt...the glucose test I took 2 weeks ago was normal. I just had my blood pressure checked which was normal and was measured which is right on track...she said he was head down :) I was wondering how he was positioned...she said yup he is head down and showed where his back and then legs/feet were...she said he should stay that way. :) I dont know how she can tell but she can! haha and got to hear his heartbeat again! It was in the 140s which she says is fine... SO it was a good appt :) I have another one is 2 weeks! I will be 31 weeks on Friday! (Nov 7) only 9 more weeks! CRAZINESS!

Now she says I should be feeling movements like 10 times in an hour twice a day..I do feel him move a lot! Which is good! However, I am afraid with her saying that, I will become obsessive about it..but I cant worry about it! He is healthy and I am continuing to pray for a healthy baby boy who is growing and developing normally :) Thanks for your prayers!

Dr appt update!

2008-10-23T13:34:00.000-07:00

I had another dr appt! I had to get the rhogam shot and glucose (diabetes) test...good times...haha it wasnt bad. The stuff you have to drink is not bad at all. I got the orange and it tasted like orange pop that was really sweet so I didnt think it tasted bad. I mean I prolly couldnt drink more than a cup of it but it was fine. I also had to get blood drawn twice... and the shot was in my hip. lol

I had my regular dr. appt in between which only lasted like 10 minutes lol. My blood pressure was checked which was normal :) and she measured me with the measuring tape (the length up) and I am right where I should be and then I got to hear Drew's heartbeat :D I always love that! Its the coolest! She said it was in the 140s which is normal right now. So overall, it was a good apt! I am so thankful!

God is so good! I thank God everyday for this blessing and pray for a healthy baby :) Thank you for your continued prayers!

Pregnancy Update

2008-09-23T12:36:00.000-07:00

I had my OB doctor appt today! I guesss my stomach is measuring right where I need to be (24 weeks) so maybe I am not a week ahead, but it doesnt matter anyways :) The same "due date" Jan. 10.. I also got to hear Drew's heartbeat :) That is always amazing! He said it was in the 150s which is normal... everything is looking fine, praise the Lord :) My next appt is Oct 22 when I am 28 weeks and I have to get the Rhogam shot (cuz I have A negative blood) and diabetes glucose test during that visit...fun stuff haha I have gained a total of 7 lbs since I have been pregnant. He said that was fine. He first asked if I have been eating and drinking and I was like YEAH :) It is exciting to have a baby! hehe
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On a different note, last night was aweful though. I was up all night with a terrible terrible migraine to which I threw up twice...I still have it a little but not TERRIBLE..but please pray that it will go away completely and not have to deal with more of these...thanks!

22 week ultrasound!

2008-09-03T17:21:00.000-07:00

I had my official ultrasound!! It was confirmed that we are having a boy so that is exciting :) It was also sooo cool to see my baby again..moving around...etc ! It was soo cool! He is an active little guy! Getting bigger and bigger! He is 1 lb 9 oz! hehe ...Everything looked great and his heartbeat was good...it is cool seeing that on the ultrasound! She said his legs and feet were right by my bladder! NO WONDER I pee all the time!! lol especially after I feel him kick a lot! haha That is amazing to feel him kick...it makes me feel good too that he is moving around!

So I dont know if everyone who reads this knows but the baby's name is Andrew Nicholas :) and I like the name Drew :)

Thank you for all your prayers once again. Continue to pray for Drew! :) and myself !
Also, for student teaching!!! That is going well..I will teach my first lessons next week. I will be teaching Bible next week!! I am kinda nervous! Thanks!!!

21 weeks and counting...

2008-08-29T13:40:00.000-07:00

I have an appt on Wed. the 3rd for the official ultrasound at my dr's office! :) I am sooo excited to see my baby again moving around! Speaking of moving around...I feel my babe moving around a lot!!! It is the coolest thing to feel him kicking! I know I have talked about this before but it is an amazing feeling! Nick has felt him kick now! (for the first time the other day.) It was early in the morning before we went to the school for meetings this week... after I got up to pee for the hundredth time ya know...I layed back down on my back and he started kicking! I grabbed Nick's hand and put it on my belly! HE FELT IT! :) He said "ya, its cool." haha . He is such a guy but he is excited... =)

On a different note, student teaching starts on TUES! First day of school!! I am a little overwhelmed and nervous but excited I guess haha ...I am gonna be so tired! In addition to just student teaching, being pregnant adds to it! haha ALSO, having to pee all the time will be interesting lol...

That is going on right now in my life....I have a few prayer requests.., #1 my great aunt is dying of cancer...so pray for her for peace and love...etc....#2 my student teaching...and #3 as always...the baby! :)

Thank you for your continued prayers!

Baby growing and moving

2008-08-15T12:27:00.000-07:00

I am at 19 weeks pregnant now! :) Cant believe I am like 1/2 way through my pregnancy already!!! I have felt the baby move toooO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was sooo exciting! However, at first I did not know what it was...it is very hard to explain and a lot of people explain it differently...sometimes it felt like ripples in my stomach but I have also felt like a pressure or something pushing against my skin from the other side...HAHAHA that is the best I can do in describing what it felt like...now I want to feel him all the time!....i think "is he still moving???" lol and I cant wait to get the official ultrasound so I can see him again ....and hear his heartbeat!! I wish I could watch him all the time!

The sucky thing is right now I have a bad cold...well REALLY bad sinus pressure/pain/congestion!!!!!!!!!!! it is TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!! my throat kills and everything....PLEASE PRAY FOR ME.... i might sound like a baby lol but I am miserable! :(

And continue praying for my baby :) Thank you!

DR appt

2008-07-29T12:33:00.000-07:00

I had a dr appt...got to hear the hearbeat again today....that is always nice :) and the dr said the baby was moving around alot and that he sounded good :) That is nice to hear as well! So I have my next appt Aug 26 and she said then I can have an ultrasound...the funny thing is she was like "you are 16 1/2 weeks. You dont get an ultrasound til 20 weeks!" haha so have to wait for that...(even tho i got one already) hehehehehe :) It is so good to know my baby is doing fine...I pray everyday for him...

There is my update for you! Thanks for the prayers!

No morning sickness!!!!!!

2008-07-20T15:56:00.000-07:00

I havent thrown up in over a week now!!!!!! :) PRAISE THE LORD :) I think now I will be feeling better... with morning sickness anyways...

It still seems surreal that we are having a boy but I am soo excited! There is still a tiny part of me that is like "what if it isnt a boy and we think it is and told everyone?" but i dont know what else that part would be in the ultrasound :) It is just so amazing that there is a little person growing inside me...It is crazy that he moved around so much in the ultrasound but I cant feel him moving yet.

It is hard to explain what I feel about all this...it is just so awesome that God blessed us with this baby. I pray everyday for the baby that he is growing and developing normally and healthy and continues to have a strong heartbeat :) God is in control!

Thanks for all the prayers!

Having a...BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-19T12:18:00.000-07:00

SO we saw the ultrasound and it was the most amazing thing ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We finally saw his legs and butt spread with the little thing in between haha 98% sure that he is a boy cuz of that! hehehehe i was like WHAT..couldnt believe it cuz i was just expecting it to be a girl cuz there are just all girls in my family!!! and nick's aunt said that I might be a little farther along than 15 weeks cuz of the size of the babe..we will see in a couple weeks when I get another altrasound with my doctor :) I am just sooo excited!!! The baby was really movin around and flipping over in it...it was soooooo cool!!!! And we saw his mouth open and close and move his little hands all around! I just cant describe the feeling I got when I saw my baby...! I have a video of the ultrasound on facebook...Nick used his flip video to do that....thanks for all the prayers for a healthy baby! Keep them coming! :) thanks!

BABY'S HEARTBEAT~

2008-07-01T11:43:00.000-07:00

We FINALLY got to hear our baby's heartbeat!!!!!!!! :) IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOO COOL!!!!! It is sooo real now! The doctor said it was a good heartbeat, sounded good...It was 164 beats a min... It is just soo exciting....I almost cried!! But, mostly, I just kept smiling in awe!!! We have a baby!!!! I am praising God for a healthy heartbeat and the blessing of a baby!

Now, I cant wait until we find out if it is a boy or girl!!! I have heard that if it is a faster heartbeat, it is a girl so...we will see!!

It is just soo awesome!!!!

Keep praying for the baby :)

One year anniversary

2008-06-23T19:04:00.001-07:00

So today, Nick and I have been married a whole year. That is so crazy! In a way, it seems that its been that long; but in a way, it seems like it was just yesterday that we got married. It has been an awesome year, growing in our relationship as a married couple. I just want to say, we were together 5 years before we got married so we KNEW a lot about each other, we thought everything. However, it is true that no matter how long you are with someone, once you get married and live together, there are still things you learn about. :) It is a crazy, fun ride!!! I love him.

Now, we are going to have a baby! :) People say "well you almost made it a year..." hahaha

SICK OF THROWING UP

2008-06-21T07:49:00.000-07:00

So...I am sooooo excited about this baby, but this morning sickness - throwing up and nausea is for the birds. Throwing up is really getting old. It is very exhausting...
BAH! :(
At least in the end it will be all worth it...

So, I also have a little bump...not much at all but a little one nonetheless, so my pants are a little tight around my waist and my shirts are a little tight around my lower abdomen. I have shirts now that I wear and they are tight around at the bottom and I also have maternity type shirts (that are in style now.) The question is what do I wear!? haha Sometimes I wear regular shirts and sometimes I wear the maternity style ones. However, the maternity ones make me look more pregnant and the regular ones kinda make me look like I have a little pouch so ...haha i know quite the dilemma. jk well here are my thoughts...

Waiting...

2008-06-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

So I am in the middle of my 10th week now..I have just been hanging out, relaxing, still throwing up daily...unfortunately. I am anxious for that to be over! Also, still... waiting til July 1....haha
According to what it says about week 10, my baby is the size of a kumquat and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce :) Craziness! It is amazing how God creates a little person inside :) VERY EXCITING!

Baby!

2008-06-09T16:34:00.000-07:00

I am 9 weeks pregnant, almost done with my first trimester! I am sooo excited and so is Nick! On July 1st, I have a doctor appt; the doctor said I will be able to hear the heartbeat so I cannot wait! :) It is still very surreal to me so I can't wait to hear it because then it will be real! (even though it is now) haha

I have had a lot of morning sickness! It really is aweful throwing up everyday! However, I think I am starting to feel a little better...as I hear "the joys of the first semester" lol I am almost done with the first trimester and they say usually that goes away after that!

Pray for me and the baby!!! :)